Friday, December 24, 2010
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Hey folks,
Glad yal can make it back! I'm looking forward to seeing the new Harry Potter movie next week, or so... Somehow, I feel that its so real somewhere, or somehow! Isn't it why some people see and feel things that can't be explained? Hell, I know so, and so should many of you if you trully believe as I do... Not to sound all creepy and all, but think about it, how can we really explain the bermuda triangle, the WEATHER, strange disappearances, and re-occurrances and such? One day, there will be a way for all of us to see these things the way some of us have always seen them - Out in the open!
Ken
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
The Ghostly Shadow...
Last week, I'm sorry I didn't put this out sooner, but I was a little busy and trying to keep up with bills, rent, and car-repairs for my car and my dad's truck now... No excuses, right?! Right!!! So, as I'm typing, last week sometime while I was getting my walk out and under way, I usually pick a floor of the building, where I work, that has a long and wide open space to walk in, instead of walking in the hot-ass parking garage. Well, this particular day, I was walking in my normal spot when all of a sudden, I felt like I was being watched, again! Ya'll know by now, that when I get that feeling, I look around and see if there's anyone else in the room with me... With the naked eye, it isn't, but to the other "inner" eye, something is there watching me! Now, back to the walking part, I was walking up and down this long, and wide open space as usual when the feeling came over me, I looked around and saw nothing at first, then I looked again and to my surprise, there was another shadow beside my shadow walking along-side me the whole time... So, being the big chicken that I am, SPED-UP with my walk, and hoped that the shadow would go away, and he/she did eventually, because they realized that I was in work-out mode, and not talk or play mode, right then! To be quite honest, the shadow just startled me a little bit because it was unexpected a little, but can I really say unexpected without being partially silly since all types of weird things happen to me?! NOT REALLY... I don't know why I get a little bend out of shape when these things happen to me, I guess its because, it's NOT a "natural-thing" for most people, and for it to happen to me, gives me goose-bumps and partially makes me re-thing life, and the meaning of things to a certain degree... Without a shadow of a doubt, there is life beyond death, and the after-life is just as lively as, "We - the Living" or a regular person's life as possible and more... All we have to do is believe, and the other side will be revealed to us in due time! But for now, good night, and have a safe and wonderful Halloween, if I don't get a chance to post anything-else before then!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Sunday, September 5, 2010
A Reminder Of What Love Is
Today is a bad day! I just got through watching Nanny McPhee 2, when the tears started to flow as I watched the kid's father return at the end of the movie! Out of nowhere, BOOM!!!!! Here comes the tears... I knew it was coming again, eventually, because I haven't let it out in awhile, nor have I really relaxed and had a great time anywhere... Plus, to add insult to injury, today is a Sunday! Every Sunday, my dad had a routine that he did every morning and every evening -- those things never go away for me! For so long, I've been there to see, hear, feel what it's like to have him around and trully be there for me -- US (mom, sis, and me). Right now, No real words can honestly say how much I really miss and need him here... Not only for my own self, but for my mom, so she won't be alone! As I talk with my mom, I can tell if she misses him and wants him back home. She said to me the other day, "I don't know why Jerry died and left me alone..." I wanted to die, period - end of story! To hear her say that, and to even feel her words like that, from over the phone was more that I could bare! I almost broke-down right there on the phone with her... Just lose it for once and not be so stern... Her words were so deep, and meant so much, that they broke me down just that fast! Damn, I tried to be over his death and keep myself busy, but once the busy-ness stops, what do I have next? I feel as though part of me is missing and can't be replaced, and no matter how hard you look for it, it's nowhere to be found again! Bless us all Lord, to see our Lost-Loved-Ones again...
I want him to know that we trully miss, and love him with all of our hearts! Thank you Lord, again for blessing us with him.
Ken
I want him to know that we trully miss, and love him with all of our hearts! Thank you Lord, again for blessing us with him.
Ken
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Elevators
Music for Elevators
Good Morning all,
Last night, I dreamed that I was trapped in an elevator with a co-worker that I hardly ever talk to! The lady that was in the elevator with me is an older black female, that has short dark and blonde hair, and has on square-shaped glasses. She is also a lady with a husky-smoker's type voice that sounds kinda raspy when she talks! As I was trapped in the elevator with her, the time seemed to pass by almost immediately while one side of the elevator, at the back was dipping down as if it was going to fall. I'm in the elevator scared for my life and this co-worker is standing in front of the buttons and saying nothing... I'm like," Hello Bitch, This shit is gonna fall, do you wanna live or die?!" As I screamed to her, she just stood there as if she was paralized with fear or some shit... But, I know I wasn't happy and I wanted to be out of the elevator and somewhere else, LIKE NOW! As we stood there scared shit-less, I'm screaming and this tramp is standing there saying nothing, I got to the door of the elevator and the door opened! We got out of the elevator and I turned around, she was nowhere to be found! It was almost as if she wasn't even there in the first place, or something! I don't know where she went or how the hell she got out the elevator, but I DO know that the dream was over when I turned around and she wasn't there! Weird and freaky again -- YES, but scared shit-less and freaked out -- MAYBE!!!
Have a great day all, and Sweet dreams!!!
Good Morning all,
Last night, I dreamed that I was trapped in an elevator with a co-worker that I hardly ever talk to! The lady that was in the elevator with me is an older black female, that has short dark and blonde hair, and has on square-shaped glasses. She is also a lady with a husky-smoker's type voice that sounds kinda raspy when she talks! As I was trapped in the elevator with her, the time seemed to pass by almost immediately while one side of the elevator, at the back was dipping down as if it was going to fall. I'm in the elevator scared for my life and this co-worker is standing in front of the buttons and saying nothing... I'm like," Hello Bitch, This shit is gonna fall, do you wanna live or die?!" As I screamed to her, she just stood there as if she was paralized with fear or some shit... But, I know I wasn't happy and I wanted to be out of the elevator and somewhere else, LIKE NOW! As we stood there scared shit-less, I'm screaming and this tramp is standing there saying nothing, I got to the door of the elevator and the door opened! We got out of the elevator and I turned around, she was nowhere to be found! It was almost as if she wasn't even there in the first place, or something! I don't know where she went or how the hell she got out the elevator, but I DO know that the dream was over when I turned around and she wasn't there! Weird and freaky again -- YES, but scared shit-less and freaked out -- MAYBE!!!
Have a great day all, and Sweet dreams!!!
Monday, August 23, 2010
Someone New
Hey folks,
I wanna let yal know that I found someone new to talk and play with for the time being! She's fun, caring, and loves to laugh despite the pain she goes through on a daily basis! Truth be told, I feel a connection with her already... And, I hope she sticks around because I really enjoy her company!
Love ya folks, and stay tuned!
I wanna let yal know that I found someone new to talk and play with for the time being! She's fun, caring, and loves to laugh despite the pain she goes through on a daily basis! Truth be told, I feel a connection with her already... And, I hope she sticks around because I really enjoy her company!
Love ya folks, and stay tuned!
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Time and Confusion
Hello all,
Happy to be up and somewhere, even if its just the job for today. Sometimes, I wish that my life didn't just revolve around the time to be on a job somewhere! I can sometimes enjoy being at the job because of the people I work with but at the end of the day, I still feel as though something is missing and all of my time is now gone ...! Sometimes, I want to see what would happen if I could just stop being at the job at a specific time and start going else-where ... NOW, you all know that if I do that then my ass will be out of a job and on the unemployment line faster than you can say, "CHECK the MAIL!" I don't quite get the time-thing as well as I'm supposed to, but I will get better as I grow more. Not that I'm a constant late-ass person and all, but sometimes TIME can really creep up on ya, and then BOOM... It's that TIME to be somewhere else! RIGHT --- WRONG!!! At this point in our lives, we must try our best to be where we're supposed to be for the good of our jobs, the good of our families, and the good of just being on-time to where you, or one would need to be at this specific point in TIME, yet again! If this makes sense or not, I want you all to know that we are never promised tomorrow and if we should most definitely run out of this time-thang, we should make the best of it and try our best to salvage and save it to the best of our abilities! FUNNY, yet confusing is my way now!
Have fun figuring this one out folks, and Until next time, be good to yourself and to others!
Happy to be up and somewhere, even if its just the job for today. Sometimes, I wish that my life didn't just revolve around the time to be on a job somewhere! I can sometimes enjoy being at the job because of the people I work with but at the end of the day, I still feel as though something is missing and all of my time is now gone ...! Sometimes, I want to see what would happen if I could just stop being at the job at a specific time and start going else-where ... NOW, you all know that if I do that then my ass will be out of a job and on the unemployment line faster than you can say, "CHECK the MAIL!" I don't quite get the time-thing as well as I'm supposed to, but I will get better as I grow more. Not that I'm a constant late-ass person and all, but sometimes TIME can really creep up on ya, and then BOOM... It's that TIME to be somewhere else! RIGHT --- WRONG!!! At this point in our lives, we must try our best to be where we're supposed to be for the good of our jobs, the good of our families, and the good of just being on-time to where you, or one would need to be at this specific point in TIME, yet again! If this makes sense or not, I want you all to know that we are never promised tomorrow and if we should most definitely run out of this time-thang, we should make the best of it and try our best to salvage and save it to the best of our abilities! FUNNY, yet confusing is my way now!
Have fun figuring this one out folks, and Until next time, be good to yourself and to others!
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Get to Know Jesus ...
Hello all,
Today, I wanna share a quote with you guys. "There are many things you can die without knowing, but you should NEVER die without knowing Jesus!"
Today, I wanna share a quote with you guys. "There are many things you can die without knowing, but you should NEVER die without knowing Jesus!"
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Nightmares
Hey yal,
Has anyone ever had a dream that was so real that when you awaken, your body is literally BUZZING all over? Well I did, and it left my world rocking and rolling all morning long! As I awakened from a dream state this particular day, I noticed that the walls in my room looked as though they were made out of rubber and as though they were stretching -- all on their own...! Whatever was in my dream, I hope I never dream it again! Even before I went to sleep, I didn't feel strange at all, nor did I feel as though things wouldn't turn out right the next day and all. AND, to be totally honest, when I awakened from the dream-state, I had no recollection of what I just seen, heard, and felt in the dream I just had... My mind was as though it was jelly, and my thoughts began to run like we were in a marathon somewhere! The next thing I knew, I was just buzzed and shaking literally, everywhere! I don't even know how, or why I felt like this, but I hope that it never happens again. In a way, I felt like I was in a jar and was just shook-up somehow, or better yet, something may have grabbed me and shook me to bits and the pieces were still shaking would be a better description! Somehow or someway, this will happen again because it's me and of course if you don't know by now, WEIRD THINGS HAPPEN TO ME CONSTANTLY! As usual, I'll wake right-up and blog all about it!
Good night all!
Has anyone ever had a dream that was so real that when you awaken, your body is literally BUZZING all over? Well I did, and it left my world rocking and rolling all morning long! As I awakened from a dream state this particular day, I noticed that the walls in my room looked as though they were made out of rubber and as though they were stretching -- all on their own...! Whatever was in my dream, I hope I never dream it again! Even before I went to sleep, I didn't feel strange at all, nor did I feel as though things wouldn't turn out right the next day and all. AND, to be totally honest, when I awakened from the dream-state, I had no recollection of what I just seen, heard, and felt in the dream I just had... My mind was as though it was jelly, and my thoughts began to run like we were in a marathon somewhere! The next thing I knew, I was just buzzed and shaking literally, everywhere! I don't even know how, or why I felt like this, but I hope that it never happens again. In a way, I felt like I was in a jar and was just shook-up somehow, or better yet, something may have grabbed me and shook me to bits and the pieces were still shaking would be a better description! Somehow or someway, this will happen again because it's me and of course if you don't know by now, WEIRD THINGS HAPPEN TO ME CONSTANTLY! As usual, I'll wake right-up and blog all about it!
Good night all!
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Saturday, July 24, 2010
A Great Night
Hello all, last night was a great night spent with my friend. We went to a movie, and went to breakfast after the movie. During that time, I felt a deep connection that I've had before, but not with her! Is it me over-reacting, and over analyzing this thing, or is it something else... ? Nevertheless, we had a great time and hopefully, we will go out again soon!
Later folks, have a great day!
Later folks, have a great day!
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Update...
Hello all,
I'm happy to admit that nothing weird has happened to me today. Usually, I woulda caught a shadow or two, but nothing, yet! As yal know, I'll keep ya posted!
Good night all!
I'm happy to admit that nothing weird has happened to me today. Usually, I woulda caught a shadow or two, but nothing, yet! As yal know, I'll keep ya posted!
Good night all!
Friday, July 16, 2010
2 Years to the Day of my Dad's Funeral
2 Years ago today, my dad's funeral took place. It was one of the longest days of my life, and sad to say, all I wanted then was for the day to be over with! I remember walking into the church and getting ready to be seated, but I just can't get past anything after the tears started to flow! As I sat there, all I could do was hold my mom and cry! I felt as though I had lost the world ... How could this happen, where was I when the world stopped turning, and time stopped? This is the longest day of my life! As the emotions took ahold of me, screaming in pain is all I could think of, especially since everyone was so upbeat and happy. My daddy is gone, and with every thought, every breath I took, I wanted to explode with emotion. I remember wanting to just run from the church and scream at the top of my lungs, "I want him back, How could you do this to me, How could you take him from us, and Why does it have to be my dad?" All of this was swearling inside of my mind like echoes in a canyon, or ripples in water. What would I do next without him? How am I supposed to live and learn to love without his teaching me what I need to know about relationships, or how to be a good boyfriend, how to get-along with a spouse, or another loved-one? Damn, most of the time when he was talking, why wasn't I listening to his wisdom, his know-how, his words to change my way of thinking, or my true way of life? What was I doing, and why the Hell is this such a long-ass day! Agony... Make it stop, someone help me breathe ...! I can't think straight, talk, or even think about anything else but him! Why'd he have to go, why Lord, why?
Where Do We Go From Here
Where Do We Go From HereWednesday, July 14, 2010
Maybe in Another life
Hey Yal,
I'm very happy to say that I've been having a great week thus far. Nothing bad happened or really good except my 5 Lb weight-loss. Even with that, I don't really feel anything's really changed in me. I still feel connected to my family and friends as usual, and other people at work as I get to know them more! Sometimes, I don't know how to explain it, but I feel that I've met everyone that's in my life before, maybe in another life or something?! Hmmm, we'll have to wait and see! But, anywho, have a great night all and a great weekend as well!
Love,
Ken
I'm very happy to say that I've been having a great week thus far. Nothing bad happened or really good except my 5 Lb weight-loss. Even with that, I don't really feel anything's really changed in me. I still feel connected to my family and friends as usual, and other people at work as I get to know them more! Sometimes, I don't know how to explain it, but I feel that I've met everyone that's in my life before, maybe in another life or something?! Hmmm, we'll have to wait and see! But, anywho, have a great night all and a great weekend as well!
Love,
Ken
Saturday, July 10, 2010
The Day After My Nightmare
Yesterday, was the two-year anniversary of my dad's death. The whole day, I felt as though things were just getting on my nerves. I just couldn't get shit right, because I couldn't stop thinking about my dad! I wanted to be dead, is all I could think about when I thought of the funeral, and all the guests, and the family-hyjinx... I couldn't even believe that I came to this point of thinking that the whole world would just stop, but never did! How in the hell am I gonna get past this, and onto another day?! Well, I'm here today, a day after that dreadful day to let everyone know that life trully does move on, and that in time, we will recover and be okay!
Until next time, be good to yourself and to each-other!
Ken
Until next time, be good to yourself and to each-other!
Ken
Thursday, July 8, 2010
My Sign, What sign are you?
"The extremely careful not to let your friends talk you into putting yourself in a compromising situation today, Libra. With the kind of deceptive energy that is focused in your Solar house of enjoyment and fun, what appears to be innocent may turn out to be very much the opposite. At the same time, a romantic evening could fulfill an important fantasy for you tonight. Try to stick to quiet an out-of-the-way, or private activities because there is a possibility of confusion, embarrassment, or maybe even so much drama that what starts out good could turn out to cause all sorts of unanticipated problems."
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
A Thought for Today
Hey folks,
God is love, yal! And that means that we should show and express that love as often as possible to each other. We should also show a little love to our enemies, not a lot, but just enough to push them onto somewhere else, and out of your face! Hehe... Be good to youselves and to each other... I love you all, and have a great night!
God is love, yal! And that means that we should show and express that love as often as possible to each other. We should also show a little love to our enemies, not a lot, but just enough to push them onto somewhere else, and out of your face! Hehe... Be good to youselves and to each other... I love you all, and have a great night!
Monday, July 5, 2010
A Comment left by a Viewer
If you've lost someone you loved over a disease or an illness, this lil-bit is for you...
Everyday that I wake up, I feel as though life is a little bit harder to bare, knowing that you are not here. There is a point to this whole thing we call life, and I know that it's NOT just to Die, But to trully live before we Die!
Everyday that I wake up, I feel as though life is a little bit harder to bare, knowing that you are not here. There is a point to this whole thing we call life, and I know that it's NOT just to Die, But to trully live before we Die!
Learning to Let Go
Dear Lord,
We have the potential to so much more than just men or women in this world. Let us grow and learn from each other to be better than just a name or just another face in this world! Help us to understand that what we have, doesn't define who we are, and what type of money we have, doesn't make our lives any easier than where we came from in the beginning -- we're still the same being, inside and out! Change us Lord into better men and better women, to love ourselves and grow within ourselves enough to NOT let materialistic things and matters of UN-importance change or block our paths to greatness! We deserve so much more than just a plain, pretty picture, or just being an ordinary person! Help us to know that we are special in every way, shape, and form. Be there for us, when we don't yet know how to deal with our emotions, and how to cope with what's going on around us. Lord, help us to forgive ourselves and each other as we grow and learn to trully let go, and Let God! These and many other blessings we ask in Jesus name... AMEN!
We have the potential to so much more than just men or women in this world. Let us grow and learn from each other to be better than just a name or just another face in this world! Help us to understand that what we have, doesn't define who we are, and what type of money we have, doesn't make our lives any easier than where we came from in the beginning -- we're still the same being, inside and out! Change us Lord into better men and better women, to love ourselves and grow within ourselves enough to NOT let materialistic things and matters of UN-importance change or block our paths to greatness! We deserve so much more than just a plain, pretty picture, or just being an ordinary person! Help us to know that we are special in every way, shape, and form. Be there for us, when we don't yet know how to deal with our emotions, and how to cope with what's going on around us. Lord, help us to forgive ourselves and each other as we grow and learn to trully let go, and Let God! These and many other blessings we ask in Jesus name... AMEN!
Drugs, Alcoholism, and Spirtuality
Living a life that is free from pain is a very difficult thing to do! To hold on to yourself, your family, some type of love-life, and then trying to balance out work and home-life will take a toll on the best of families. With that said, we struggle to find a balance between all of this and just living sometimes can lead to depression. With the depression, we are struggling to escape reality by using the wrong outlets such as drugs and drinking. In order for us to find the proper balance and an acceptable outlet for our depression, we have to seek out good ways to express our bottled up anger, moodiness, and overall attitude-change. A few good ways to deal and cope is to pray, and ask God to step-in, and change your life for the best; play a musical instrument, watch a movie, get a pet for more love, writing a journal for your feelings, play a sport, or take up other hobbies for enjoyment. All are acceptable and good ways to deal with and release the pressue that we feel inside! Anything that you can do in a positive way or a "thing" that doesn't involve drugs and drinking will help you and maybe someone else in the process. Many other good ways to cope can be found in the book below...
Thank you all; Each and every life we share with each-other is a life we must hold dear! Be good to yourself and to others! Lord, bless and inspire each and every person who reads this for the better, and for the good of someone else as well.
Thank you all; Each and every life we share with each-other is a life we must hold dear! Be good to yourself and to others! Lord, bless and inspire each and every person who reads this for the better, and for the good of someone else as well.
Becoming a Better Psychic
I've read that becoming a psychic is an UN-easy thing to do! Once your mind is set free and tuned-in on the spiritual world you have to focus and put your feelings aside and concentrate on the white light around oneself. How can I actually do this without some sort of consequence of sorts? I've also read that If I wanted to, I can see where exactly my dead family is on the other-side as well! AGAIN I say, I cannot see myself doing this without some sort of problem to arise after free-ing my mind. When I meditate and focus, the book says that I should meditate for 5 or more minutes in a dark room with no music or sound. I should just listen to the energy's that supposed to speak to me. I think I will try and meditate more and let my mind take me to where my dad and grandma is! To a place beyond space and time and beyond mortal sciences, to the other-side, the spiritual world! Once I cross over to the spiritual world, then I can try and find my way through to get where I want to be, If that makes any sense! And of course, I will journey there and come back to tell everything I saw, IF I MAKE IT BACK ALIVE!!!!!!! Knowing this, imagine where we can take our minds, to far away places and to other avenues of the earth that we can only dream of! With this said, I will HAVE to try it then let you all know... Good Night all! By the Way, Happy Fourth!!!!
The Hurt over Loss
Hello all,
I seem to be a little down and feeling blue. 2 Years ago in this very month, I lost my dad. I knew this was coming and dreaded this month ever since my dad's birthday past on the 28th of last month! I know that as time go by, wounds should begin to heal, but does anybody know how much time it will take? I really wonder, am I going to feel like the world is over, and that the center of my universe is gone forever or is this how hurt over loss is? Time is trully an illusion by which all things on this earth is damned, or cursed to come to its bitter end, one way or another; only to leave the left-over loved ones in hurt and pain for eternity. If there is a better way to deal with loss, I think now is a great time to tell me because I really feel as though I'm re-living a nightmare that just won't end without me, or someone else dying in the process! I'm sorry that this isn't my normal mode of tone or even the jovial-self I can be, but I'm hurting and want to share my feelings with you all in hopes that same hurt doesn't be-fall someone else. For two years, I've been trying to hold it together and not lose it on my job, and just tell everyone to JUST go to Hell and call it a day, but I know my dad would scream at me from the otherside! I'm JUST hurt, and still a little shocked that he's actually gone. I kind of still expect to see his face when I walk through the door back home! How in the hell can he be dead, and how the hell am I gonna get through this without losing a piece of my heart in the process? I guess only time can tell, and only God can help us... This is a very hard time and I want all of you to pray that we, my family and I, make it through this tough time in our lives!
Thank you all for listening and sharing with me!
With Love,
Ken
I seem to be a little down and feeling blue. 2 Years ago in this very month, I lost my dad. I knew this was coming and dreaded this month ever since my dad's birthday past on the 28th of last month! I know that as time go by, wounds should begin to heal, but does anybody know how much time it will take? I really wonder, am I going to feel like the world is over, and that the center of my universe is gone forever or is this how hurt over loss is? Time is trully an illusion by which all things on this earth is damned, or cursed to come to its bitter end, one way or another; only to leave the left-over loved ones in hurt and pain for eternity. If there is a better way to deal with loss, I think now is a great time to tell me because I really feel as though I'm re-living a nightmare that just won't end without me, or someone else dying in the process! I'm sorry that this isn't my normal mode of tone or even the jovial-self I can be, but I'm hurting and want to share my feelings with you all in hopes that same hurt doesn't be-fall someone else. For two years, I've been trying to hold it together and not lose it on my job, and just tell everyone to JUST go to Hell and call it a day, but I know my dad would scream at me from the otherside! I'm JUST hurt, and still a little shocked that he's actually gone. I kind of still expect to see his face when I walk through the door back home! How in the hell can he be dead, and how the hell am I gonna get through this without losing a piece of my heart in the process? I guess only time can tell, and only God can help us... This is a very hard time and I want all of you to pray that we, my family and I, make it through this tough time in our lives!
Thank you all for listening and sharing with me!
With Love,
Ken
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Grandma and her ghosts
Hello again everyone,
I know that I haven't blogged in awhile and need a serious whipping for it, but yet, I feel compelled to write you guys about my grandma, and the visits she used to get when she was alive. Every night, or every other night at my grandmother's house, I was a kid as she always talked about the spirits that came the night before! When she talked to them, they asked her all the time if she wanted to come with them and experience the other side? And every night, my grandma would tell the spirits, "No!" and that she wanted to stay where she was, and that she wanted to be with her family here! We used to laugh and poke fun of my grandma's stories, but it wasn't until I was much older that I realized that she was for real and that the spirits never really went away, they stayed and patiently waited until my grandma was loosing her way a little, and possibly asked her again, "Did she want to come and be with them on the other side?" I want to say so much without a shadow of a doubt that my grandma left with her loved-ones on the other side... I feel that she gave it her all and wanted to be at peace now. Maybe she felt as though her time was up and needed to be at rest... My grandma's not exactly talking to me these days to let me know for sure, but if I ever see her in my dreams again, I'll ask her! I really want to know... I have a distinct feeling that she wanted to go, and didn't want any of us to worry about her! sooooo, I will have to settle for missing her terribly, until I get a chance to talk with her in my dreams or once I make it on the other side! Until next time, Good night all!
I know that I haven't blogged in awhile and need a serious whipping for it, but yet, I feel compelled to write you guys about my grandma, and the visits she used to get when she was alive. Every night, or every other night at my grandmother's house, I was a kid as she always talked about the spirits that came the night before! When she talked to them, they asked her all the time if she wanted to come with them and experience the other side? And every night, my grandma would tell the spirits, "No!" and that she wanted to stay where she was, and that she wanted to be with her family here! We used to laugh and poke fun of my grandma's stories, but it wasn't until I was much older that I realized that she was for real and that the spirits never really went away, they stayed and patiently waited until my grandma was loosing her way a little, and possibly asked her again, "Did she want to come and be with them on the other side?" I want to say so much without a shadow of a doubt that my grandma left with her loved-ones on the other side... I feel that she gave it her all and wanted to be at peace now. Maybe she felt as though her time was up and needed to be at rest... My grandma's not exactly talking to me these days to let me know for sure, but if I ever see her in my dreams again, I'll ask her! I really want to know... I have a distinct feeling that she wanted to go, and didn't want any of us to worry about her! sooooo, I will have to settle for missing her terribly, until I get a chance to talk with her in my dreams or once I make it on the other side! Until next time, Good night all!
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Dream a Little Dream
Hello Everyone,
Last night, I dreamed a dream that I rarely dream... I actually dreamed of my other set of cousins that lived outside the city limits of my hometown. That part of my family, I rarely see, so when I dream of someone or something, I usully know them, about to meet them, or interact with these people everyday, some type of way! Getting to the dream now, I was awake and in my grandmother's house back home. While I was there, I looked for her, and of course, didn't see her, but to my surprise, her niece, my cousin was there, ranting and raving about a frilly, little multi-colored, turquise and red looking, ragged-ass piece of dress that she found in a black dooney-looking-ass big bag! ha ha... The bag looked like it was of some damned expensive-ass designer somewhere in the hills of Hollywood somewhere, but nevertheless, MY cousin was losing her damned mind over this stupid-ass dress! She looked at me, then she looked at her son and said, "Who's dress is this...? Ken, -- Eric...! Who does it belong to?" I looked at her and said, "It's NOT mine, why?" She just shut her mouth and looked at her son, with a look of GREAT disgust and that look we all know ... "BITCH, I WILL STOMP YOU IN THE DIRT-LOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!" She waited and she waited, for one of us to explain -- Oops, I guess I shoulda told her that I hate explanations and people who ask them of me! My cousin looked at Eric, and she looked at me, as if she wanted to say something to me ... Knowing her, the wrong damned thing was getting ready to fly from her lips! AND YES, I was waiting for her to say the wrong shit to me, so I can unload all my frustrations out on her, for pissing me off!!!!! Right after that - I wish you would-look, I WOKE UP... DAMN!!!!!!!!
Good night folks,
Love ya!
Last night, I dreamed a dream that I rarely dream... I actually dreamed of my other set of cousins that lived outside the city limits of my hometown. That part of my family, I rarely see, so when I dream of someone or something, I usully know them, about to meet them, or interact with these people everyday, some type of way! Getting to the dream now, I was awake and in my grandmother's house back home. While I was there, I looked for her, and of course, didn't see her, but to my surprise, her niece, my cousin was there, ranting and raving about a frilly, little multi-colored, turquise and red looking, ragged-ass piece of dress that she found in a black dooney-looking-ass big bag! ha ha... The bag looked like it was of some damned expensive-ass designer somewhere in the hills of Hollywood somewhere, but nevertheless, MY cousin was losing her damned mind over this stupid-ass dress! She looked at me, then she looked at her son and said, "Who's dress is this...? Ken, -- Eric...! Who does it belong to?" I looked at her and said, "It's NOT mine, why?" She just shut her mouth and looked at her son, with a look of GREAT disgust and that look we all know ... "BITCH, I WILL STOMP YOU IN THE DIRT-LOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!" She waited and she waited, for one of us to explain -- Oops, I guess I shoulda told her that I hate explanations and people who ask them of me! My cousin looked at Eric, and she looked at me, as if she wanted to say something to me ... Knowing her, the wrong damned thing was getting ready to fly from her lips! AND YES, I was waiting for her to say the wrong shit to me, so I can unload all my frustrations out on her, for pissing me off!!!!! Right after that - I wish you would-look, I WOKE UP... DAMN!!!!!!!!
Good night folks,
Love ya!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
I'm Baaaaaaack!
Hello all,
I want to sincerely apologize for NOT being able to blog for the last 2 weeks, and I like to say to you all that I love each and everyone of you guys! My laptop had to be fixed and I felt as though my world was ending... Sad huh...? YES, I know... But, cut me some slack, I'm apologizing and grovelling at my best, and nicest way possible! Thanks all for being understanding and hanging on to me!
Never forget that you guys ROCK, and you all are LOVED!
I want to sincerely apologize for NOT being able to blog for the last 2 weeks, and I like to say to you all that I love each and everyone of you guys! My laptop had to be fixed and I felt as though my world was ending... Sad huh...? YES, I know... But, cut me some slack, I'm apologizing and grovelling at my best, and nicest way possible! Thanks all for being understanding and hanging on to me!
Never forget that you guys ROCK, and you all are LOVED!
Monday, March 29, 2010
My Dad's Spirit
Hi All,
Today, I felt as though my dad's spirit is all around me today, and always! As I sat at the job and tended to the needs of my co-workers, I thought to myself, I wonder what Jerry is doing, and how he is on the other side? If it's him then, I know he's somewhere laughing and enjoying family and friends, his true, favorite past time! I only wish that I could stop being selfish about keeping him here in the physical world, and not over in the spiritual world, but with his family here, a little while longer! I am soo hurt, and saddened by Jerry dying that I didn't realize that he had to die, in order for him-NOT having to suffer in this life, something that he didn't deserve. My dad may not have been able to stay here but by God, he's not suffering and in pain on the other side. I thank God that I can still feel him around me and my sister that I could just lose it with joy! He's around and not really gone, is just fine for me for right now... I know that I can't get over him dying, and not being with my mother, but I can't be a selfish person, and keep him to myself when God needs him more than me!
Today, I felt as though my dad's spirit is all around me today, and always! As I sat at the job and tended to the needs of my co-workers, I thought to myself, I wonder what Jerry is doing, and how he is on the other side? If it's him then, I know he's somewhere laughing and enjoying family and friends, his true, favorite past time! I only wish that I could stop being selfish about keeping him here in the physical world, and not over in the spiritual world, but with his family here, a little while longer! I am soo hurt, and saddened by Jerry dying that I didn't realize that he had to die, in order for him-NOT having to suffer in this life, something that he didn't deserve. My dad may not have been able to stay here but by God, he's not suffering and in pain on the other side. I thank God that I can still feel him around me and my sister that I could just lose it with joy! He's around and not really gone, is just fine for me for right now... I know that I can't get over him dying, and not being with my mother, but I can't be a selfish person, and keep him to myself when God needs him more than me!
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Ghostly Flashing Lights
Hey folks,
The other night, I got this creepy feeling that came over me, suddenly! So, the first thing I did was look around the room to see if anyone from the other side was in the room with me. By now, you guys should know that there was someone there of course, but I just couldn't see them, I can only feel when they're near. At this point, I began to think to myself, "Hey, if your here, make my TV do something!" To my surprise, on the left-hand corner of my TV screen, at the top, I started seeing two little flashing lights that flashed two or three times before I looked away. They were almost like little light bulbs, flashing on and off, on my TV screen. When I turned to my computer screen and back to the TV screen, the flashing stopped, and the ghost eased on out of the room! I turned back around to see or try to feel where he/ she went, but they were gone! I'm glad to know that I can communicate with them with my mind and not out loud, where someone can hear me talking to myself -- I'm already considered to be weird and out there! Other than you guys, I don't really tell people about this sort of thing!
Good night all, Sweet dreams!
The other night, I got this creepy feeling that came over me, suddenly! So, the first thing I did was look around the room to see if anyone from the other side was in the room with me. By now, you guys should know that there was someone there of course, but I just couldn't see them, I can only feel when they're near. At this point, I began to think to myself, "Hey, if your here, make my TV do something!" To my surprise, on the left-hand corner of my TV screen, at the top, I started seeing two little flashing lights that flashed two or three times before I looked away. They were almost like little light bulbs, flashing on and off, on my TV screen. When I turned to my computer screen and back to the TV screen, the flashing stopped, and the ghost eased on out of the room! I turned back around to see or try to feel where he/ she went, but they were gone! I'm glad to know that I can communicate with them with my mind and not out loud, where someone can hear me talking to myself -- I'm already considered to be weird and out there! Other than you guys, I don't really tell people about this sort of thing!
Good night all, Sweet dreams!
Monday, March 15, 2010
Love
Hello All,
Today, I wanna talk to you guys and gals about LOVE! Some people believe that Love is just a 4-letter word to be used out of convenience, but that's NOT the real meaning of LOVE and will never be it! To Love someone is to show, tell, and do things for your mate, or loved one to show them that this is the love you have to offer! It's about caring about someone more than you care for yourself! To love is to make sacrifices for that love and make it last for as long as possible, Never letting it die! If a person trully has love in their heart, then they will do what it takes to keep you from leaving them, or keep you in their lives until death do you part - SAD, but TRUE! Know that you are loved, and Know that this is just the beginning of something great for you and your loved ones!
Until next time, Peace and Love to you all ...
Today, I wanna talk to you guys and gals about LOVE! Some people believe that Love is just a 4-letter word to be used out of convenience, but that's NOT the real meaning of LOVE and will never be it! To Love someone is to show, tell, and do things for your mate, or loved one to show them that this is the love you have to offer! It's about caring about someone more than you care for yourself! To love is to make sacrifices for that love and make it last for as long as possible, Never letting it die! If a person trully has love in their heart, then they will do what it takes to keep you from leaving them, or keep you in their lives until death do you part - SAD, but TRUE! Know that you are loved, and Know that this is just the beginning of something great for you and your loved ones!
Until next time, Peace and Love to you all ...
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Ghosts Playing with my Food
Good morning everyone,
Yesterday while I was at work, something weird happened to me... I woulda' told you guys this last night, but I was knocked out, so here goes... I went out yesterday and got food for myself and my co-workers. After I got back, and got situated at my desk, I opened my food to find that it was still hot and ready for me to dig in! Just by chance, I looked away and looked back, and found a big puff of steam collected over my food! Okay, I know that steam is supposed to rise off your food and all, but that steam sat there, in mid-air for a few seconds. I don't know if it was a face, a hand, an arm, or someone on the other side just trying to be funny, but you know me -- I wasn't freaked at all, yeah right! As I sat there, I thought that I was seeing things again, as usual... I can't get over it almost, how the steam just sat there in mid-air, over my food! When I looked again, the puff was gone, just as fast as it was there!
Have a great day yall!
Yesterday while I was at work, something weird happened to me... I woulda' told you guys this last night, but I was knocked out, so here goes... I went out yesterday and got food for myself and my co-workers. After I got back, and got situated at my desk, I opened my food to find that it was still hot and ready for me to dig in! Just by chance, I looked away and looked back, and found a big puff of steam collected over my food! Okay, I know that steam is supposed to rise off your food and all, but that steam sat there, in mid-air for a few seconds. I don't know if it was a face, a hand, an arm, or someone on the other side just trying to be funny, but you know me -- I wasn't freaked at all, yeah right! As I sat there, I thought that I was seeing things again, as usual... I can't get over it almost, how the steam just sat there in mid-air, over my food! When I looked again, the puff was gone, just as fast as it was there!
Have a great day yall!
Thursday, March 4, 2010
What Our Family on the Other Side Wants from Us
What's Acceptable and NOT Acceptable to your family on the other side...
What's Acceptable
Finding love - Finding someone to occupy your time and mind-power. Someone to share your heart with!
Being an Up-right and truthful person to yourself and to others - Meaning that your family wants you to be a good person inside and out - being truthful and honest!
Having a Family - Being a family man or woman makes you grounded, and takes your mind off your worries about them on the other side, and onto your loved ones that's living.
Having a job and actually being successful with it - they love seeing you work and try to have something, even if it's not much, it's something more than what you had!
What's NOT Acceptable
To our family on the otherside, They want us to be happy, and any of these things is a NO-NO to them and pretty much upsets them to no-end!
Being with someone Who you know is NO-good for you and your kids... If he/ she beats you and the kids, you don't need to be with them!
(Accepting Disrespect from others as though you deserve it... If someone talks to you in an unsavory way, you should not let them continue without standing up for yourself or walking away. You should let them have it, or walk away to avoid conflict!)
Not knowing your worth is another BIG NO-NO ... Don't just accept any old job, person, or anything from anybody without knowing what you trully want for yourself and your kids. Meaning, If you can't see yourself doing it for a long-ass time, DON'T DO IT, It's a waste of time and money!
Finally, Take time out for yourself to relax and unwind! If you don't take care of yourself, you'll probably end up on the otherside, sooner than later, so our loved ones on the other side want us to have a long and happy life, and NOT taking care of yourself is NOT an option!
In conclusion, we as the living should do things to honor and cherish the memories of our Loved ones on the otherside! We shouldn't do something that you/we know that they wouldn't approve of that'll turn heads, and stir-up trouble for yourself and your children. Instead of living a troubled existance, we should be the very best Us, or Good People we can be, to honor the memories of our Lost, loved ones!
Thank you all, and Good night!
What's Acceptable
Finding love - Finding someone to occupy your time and mind-power. Someone to share your heart with!
Being an Up-right and truthful person to yourself and to others - Meaning that your family wants you to be a good person inside and out - being truthful and honest!
Having a Family - Being a family man or woman makes you grounded, and takes your mind off your worries about them on the other side, and onto your loved ones that's living.
Having a job and actually being successful with it - they love seeing you work and try to have something, even if it's not much, it's something more than what you had!
What's NOT Acceptable
To our family on the otherside, They want us to be happy, and any of these things is a NO-NO to them and pretty much upsets them to no-end!
Being with someone Who you know is NO-good for you and your kids... If he/ she beats you and the kids, you don't need to be with them!
(Accepting Disrespect from others as though you deserve it... If someone talks to you in an unsavory way, you should not let them continue without standing up for yourself or walking away. You should let them have it, or walk away to avoid conflict!)
Not knowing your worth is another BIG NO-NO ... Don't just accept any old job, person, or anything from anybody without knowing what you trully want for yourself and your kids. Meaning, If you can't see yourself doing it for a long-ass time, DON'T DO IT, It's a waste of time and money!
Finally, Take time out for yourself to relax and unwind! If you don't take care of yourself, you'll probably end up on the otherside, sooner than later, so our loved ones on the other side want us to have a long and happy life, and NOT taking care of yourself is NOT an option!
In conclusion, we as the living should do things to honor and cherish the memories of our Loved ones on the otherside! We shouldn't do something that you/we know that they wouldn't approve of that'll turn heads, and stir-up trouble for yourself and your children. Instead of living a troubled existance, we should be the very best Us, or Good People we can be, to honor the memories of our Lost, loved ones!
Thank you all, and Good night!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
A Thought for Today...
Everyday, I wake up to look in the mirror to see if I'm the person who is staring back at me. And everyday, that person looking at me says, "This is your life, and you must break out of this shell and live your life to the fullest before it's too late!"
Thank you self for the best advice ever!
Thank you self for the best advice ever!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
The Followup from the Lottery
Hey Everyone,
Guess what, folks??? I won $5.00 when I did my scratch-off outside my sister's school yesterday... I guess the dream was really true... Maybe I was meant to see me winning something, after-all! Yeah, I know that $5.00 is really nothing, but to me, it's a start to something maybe bigger! Who's to say that that $5.00 could lead to another scratch-off worth more than a million dollars! Only time can tell! Of Course, I have the highest of hopes and the dreams of winners, so... Yeah, right!
Good morning all... Have a great day!
Guess what, folks??? I won $5.00 when I did my scratch-off outside my sister's school yesterday... I guess the dream was really true... Maybe I was meant to see me winning something, after-all! Yeah, I know that $5.00 is really nothing, but to me, it's a start to something maybe bigger! Who's to say that that $5.00 could lead to another scratch-off worth more than a million dollars! Only time can tell! Of Course, I have the highest of hopes and the dreams of winners, so... Yeah, right!
Good morning all... Have a great day!
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Thinking I'm a Winner Every Time!
Hello all,
The other day, I awakened to a crazy dream that had me thinking that I'd win the lottery via a scratch-off! In the dream, I was in my car scratching off a lottery ticket and thought to myself that, "Damn, what if I really win this thing...? What would I do?" Then, then next thing I know, I'm waking up looking like a fool, because later in the day, when I actually get the scratch-off, I didn't win a damn thing! Ha-Ha... Sometimes, I really do wish that when I dream its to actually help me win the lotto and not just a stupid scratch-off and get totally nothing...!
Later folks!
The other day, I awakened to a crazy dream that had me thinking that I'd win the lottery via a scratch-off! In the dream, I was in my car scratching off a lottery ticket and thought to myself that, "Damn, what if I really win this thing...? What would I do?" Then, then next thing I know, I'm waking up looking like a fool, because later in the day, when I actually get the scratch-off, I didn't win a damn thing! Ha-Ha... Sometimes, I really do wish that when I dream its to actually help me win the lotto and not just a stupid scratch-off and get totally nothing...!
Later folks!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Tomorrow Never Comes ...
Hello all,
As the title states, "Tomorrow Never Comes," for some of us tomorrow may never make it to us, and tomorrow is never even promised to no one! With that said, we have to make use of the time we have here on earth while we can! If I die today, I wanna be known for being a good person, funny, thoughtful, and very lovable with all, even my enemies! What are some of the things that you guys will be noted for and why? I, or we may never know where this day may take us, so we must do what we can when we can... No more procrastinations, or second thoughts. The time is now!!!! Start living and loving! If tomorrow never comes, then we should at least leave a legacy of love ... May we all find it, and peace to you all!
Good morning and good night, folks!
As the title states, "Tomorrow Never Comes," for some of us tomorrow may never make it to us, and tomorrow is never even promised to no one! With that said, we have to make use of the time we have here on earth while we can! If I die today, I wanna be known for being a good person, funny, thoughtful, and very lovable with all, even my enemies! What are some of the things that you guys will be noted for and why? I, or we may never know where this day may take us, so we must do what we can when we can... No more procrastinations, or second thoughts. The time is now!!!! Start living and loving! If tomorrow never comes, then we should at least leave a legacy of love ... May we all find it, and peace to you all!
Good morning and good night, folks!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Dreaming of Something's Wrong at Home
Hey yall,
I'm writing again today because I been meaning to get back into the grove of things again, and to let you guys know what happened to my mom just before Christmas this past year. Now, As you all may know, I don't live in Mississippi anymore, but I still consider it home, so this dream was of home and something that went wrong there! Okay, in the dream, I saw my mom at the front door of the house, opening the door for an unknown-ass man, or so I thought at the time. The man was a black male, brown skinned, and well-dressed with a leather cap, dress slacks, a brownish sweater, black loafers, and a black leather jacket standing at the front door talking to my mom! As I stare at this man at the door, he appeared to be anxious about something and wanting to get nasty with my mom over something. At the time, I didn't quite understand what he was saying, but his facial features gave me reason to pause and wonder what the hell is wrong! My mom slammed the door and told me to call the police...! That's where I awakened, and did that very same thing! I urgently told my friend at the police department in my home town and told her that something is wrong, and that she should send a patrolman over to breeze through the area, specifically my mom's place, to check on her and the house. My friend told me that she'd send someone over, and I got off the phone. Usually, when I dream things like this, it takes maybe a day or so for it to come to pass, but when my mom came for a visit for Christmas, I discovered on that day or the next day or so, she very well indeed had someone at her door with some drama! It turns out that, it was a cousin of ours at her door, demanding that he get the keys to the SUV parked out front of the house. Now the SUV belonged to my uncle, so my mom explained to our cousin that she was leaving for a meeting and to never show up there again in so many words or more, if you catch my drift! I'm so relieved that dear old cousin didn't try anything funny, because my mom will have shot the SHIT out of him and called it a day! Thank you LORD, she can hold her own and that things weren't worse!
Good night all...
I'm writing again today because I been meaning to get back into the grove of things again, and to let you guys know what happened to my mom just before Christmas this past year. Now, As you all may know, I don't live in Mississippi anymore, but I still consider it home, so this dream was of home and something that went wrong there! Okay, in the dream, I saw my mom at the front door of the house, opening the door for an unknown-ass man, or so I thought at the time. The man was a black male, brown skinned, and well-dressed with a leather cap, dress slacks, a brownish sweater, black loafers, and a black leather jacket standing at the front door talking to my mom! As I stare at this man at the door, he appeared to be anxious about something and wanting to get nasty with my mom over something. At the time, I didn't quite understand what he was saying, but his facial features gave me reason to pause and wonder what the hell is wrong! My mom slammed the door and told me to call the police...! That's where I awakened, and did that very same thing! I urgently told my friend at the police department in my home town and told her that something is wrong, and that she should send a patrolman over to breeze through the area, specifically my mom's place, to check on her and the house. My friend told me that she'd send someone over, and I got off the phone. Usually, when I dream things like this, it takes maybe a day or so for it to come to pass, but when my mom came for a visit for Christmas, I discovered on that day or the next day or so, she very well indeed had someone at her door with some drama! It turns out that, it was a cousin of ours at her door, demanding that he get the keys to the SUV parked out front of the house. Now the SUV belonged to my uncle, so my mom explained to our cousin that she was leaving for a meeting and to never show up there again in so many words or more, if you catch my drift! I'm so relieved that dear old cousin didn't try anything funny, because my mom will have shot the SHIT out of him and called it a day! Thank you LORD, she can hold her own and that things weren't worse!
Good night all...
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Seeing My Dad Again
Hey All,
The other night as I lay and slumber, I dreamed of my dad working somewhere on the other side. In the dream, Jerry was working outside on someone's drainage system outside this house somewhere! As I walked up to him while he worked, he greeted me, and I told him that I would help him fix the drain, and mold the stone portion of the drainage thing. Yal know that I don't know shit about drains and how to fix them, but while I was there, I can honestly say that I actually "Knew," without knowing fully what to do, when it came to fixing the drain. I said to my dad that I'm glad to be here helping him. We were side-by-side working, and as usual before anything really good happens, I wake up in a confused daze about seeing him again, and why now after this long time without seeing him? I'm hoping that he just wanted to talk to me, and to reassure me that he's there for me, even in death like he was when he was alive! I love him and thank GOD for his love everyday that I breathe! My dad is a great and proud man that didn't want his wife and kids to do without anything! He was the type of man to work hard at something, even in death I see, to achieve the ultimate goal of finishing what he started! He gave us his love and his all, and by GOD, I still miss and want him here, but as long as I can feel him around me, and see him from time to time in my dreams, that will have to do for now, until we meet again on the other side.
Love you guys and gals, Good night!
The other night as I lay and slumber, I dreamed of my dad working somewhere on the other side. In the dream, Jerry was working outside on someone's drainage system outside this house somewhere! As I walked up to him while he worked, he greeted me, and I told him that I would help him fix the drain, and mold the stone portion of the drainage thing. Yal know that I don't know shit about drains and how to fix them, but while I was there, I can honestly say that I actually "Knew," without knowing fully what to do, when it came to fixing the drain. I said to my dad that I'm glad to be here helping him. We were side-by-side working, and as usual before anything really good happens, I wake up in a confused daze about seeing him again, and why now after this long time without seeing him? I'm hoping that he just wanted to talk to me, and to reassure me that he's there for me, even in death like he was when he was alive! I love him and thank GOD for his love everyday that I breathe! My dad is a great and proud man that didn't want his wife and kids to do without anything! He was the type of man to work hard at something, even in death I see, to achieve the ultimate goal of finishing what he started! He gave us his love and his all, and by GOD, I still miss and want him here, but as long as I can feel him around me, and see him from time to time in my dreams, that will have to do for now, until we meet again on the other side.
Love you guys and gals, Good night!
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Letting the Lord Guide You!
Hello Folks,
Today, I wanna give you all some insight as to what I mean when I say, "Letting the Lord Guide you." When you feel that you have a great idea about something and that you want to put that idea into motion, that's the Lord working through you, guiding your every step to the right path. Also, when you're undecided about an event, or something that's going on in your life, your first thought is the thought that you should follow because it's the will of God trying to guide you to where you need to be! Usually, when we get these little insights and these little feelings, don't turn away from them or doubt them, because they are the feelings that could lead to something totally great and wonderful in your life. For example, a while back, I blogged about being led by an unseen force... That was God telling me where to go! I was in my car and driving to get my truck serviced, and I had a thought to turn here and silly me (with doubt), I went right past the place where I was supposed to go and the turn I needed to make! Eventually, I made a U-turn and came back to the spot where I needed to turn, and there was the auto shop, right in front of me! Soooo folks, I urge you to listen to your first mind because it'll never lead you wrong!
Good night and God Bless...
Today, I wanna give you all some insight as to what I mean when I say, "Letting the Lord Guide you." When you feel that you have a great idea about something and that you want to put that idea into motion, that's the Lord working through you, guiding your every step to the right path. Also, when you're undecided about an event, or something that's going on in your life, your first thought is the thought that you should follow because it's the will of God trying to guide you to where you need to be! Usually, when we get these little insights and these little feelings, don't turn away from them or doubt them, because they are the feelings that could lead to something totally great and wonderful in your life. For example, a while back, I blogged about being led by an unseen force... That was God telling me where to go! I was in my car and driving to get my truck serviced, and I had a thought to turn here and silly me (with doubt), I went right past the place where I was supposed to go and the turn I needed to make! Eventually, I made a U-turn and came back to the spot where I needed to turn, and there was the auto shop, right in front of me! Soooo folks, I urge you to listen to your first mind because it'll never lead you wrong!
Good night and God Bless...
Sunday, January 31, 2010
An Uneasy Rest
The night before last night, I had someone whisper to me all night long, and I couldn't get NOT one damn wink of sleep almost! There I was in the bed laying there and I kept hearing my EX-friend's voice saying her name over and over! Now, because she's an EX-friend, I woulda checked on her and tried to make sure that things were okay with her, but I can't because of all the drama and bullshit I been through in the past because of her! She, at one point in my life, made me feel like I was a terrific friend, great confidant, and a great person to be around! Now that I've stopped dealing with the drama that's been happening with her, I feel free of craziness and mess! I feel as though I'm still a terrific person inside and out, but also a person that has been through enough, and will NOT go back through the kind of mess and bullshit I've been through with her ass! Don't get me wrong, at that time, I loved and coulda worshipped the ground she walked on, but I just can't do it anymore! It got to a point that I couldn't trust my own judgement because of something she woulda said to me... She would lie constantly about shit that was too small, and try her best to make me believe her! Thank God I didn't fall for it, but I was constantly tested like that with her, and on top of things, she was only a friend -- or so I thought! I had no idea as to how many people she lost as friends because she uses them, and treats them like shit, too! In a way, I wanna call and check on what's going on with her, but in the same breath, I also just wanna NOT care this rip! So, Peace and blessings to you all and my best advice, if you have someone that's been treating you the same way, then your life will be much better without them (the person, or people that's making your life a living hell) in it!
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Feeling and Seeing Trouble Before, and After it Starts!
Hey Yal,
As you all know, or may know, I've had a couple of family issues that kept me from blogging and getting the word out about how things are going! Now to tell the truth, I got sloppy, lazy and thought of this as a chore, and not really put forth more effort than I really should have to keep going at it... SORRY folks! But, since this is a new year, and I'm trying to do better at Doing, and NOT just saying that I'm gonna DO! I feel that I can take my time and not rush into anything too fast now... SOOOOOOOO, Here goes!!!!
In November, If I didn't tell this story, I'll tell it again to re-aquaint us with all the great details. My cousin fell ill and had to be institutionalized for a short time, Very Brief time rather! He began a downward spiral into this bottom-less pit of pain and misery that many of us don't come back from! To further explain this tale, my cousin experimented with a couple of drugs that messed up his mind. As a result of the drugs, he lost it! His mind was so far gone that he was on a level of his own with shear craziness! Now, here's where I come in... That morning I awoke with Lady Ga Ga in my head singing Paparazzi! At the time, I didn't quite know what the Hell was happening and what was really going on, but I knew it had something to do with my cousin and his friend. It wasn't until I got to the hospital where my cousin was being held that I realized that he, and his friend was up all night acting and singing Lady Ga Ga songs, and flipping the FUCK out, literally! Now, the cousin's friend is just fine, and my cousin is held in the institution losing his DAMN mind! All of this was from drugs he took, and the chasers he mixed with the drugs. As we sat at the hospital waiting for word from the nurses, or anyone that could give us some absolution that he'd be okay, my mind began to wander and backtrack the events that possibly led him to the hospital. I began to see the dancing, singing, and playing around the night before, and I also saw that he kept bothering his sleeping boyfriend! My good ole' cousin wanted his boyfriend to get up and play with them, dancing, singing, and such... Then, my mind flashed to the events of that morning, before the police arrived, and hauled him to the back of the patrol car for showing out - in front of the PO-PO, then to an ambulance for treatment at the local mental facility. Now, at the hospital again, we wait as the psychiatrist tell us "NOT" to be an enabler for my cousin and start telling him, NO! We should mean what we say, and not give in to his tandrums if we trully want him to get better! At that time, I thought and kinda read her gestures as she stood there telling us about this 22-something year old-ass, grown MUTHAFUCKA, that's clearly making his own decisions as to how he wants to live his life! The anger was there, but I didn't let her have it! Instead, I cried, because she told us that we couldn't see him for 24 hours, and there was nothing that I could possibly do to fix this besides pray, and wait on the LORD to deliver us from this craziness that's taken over our lives, at this point and time! Hurt and sad, YES!!! As the next morning approaches, my dreams have alerted me that my cousin has been released from the hospital, and is on his way home in his little black car! My mom called and woke me up as I told her exactly, "Ma, dat boy done been released and is in his car heading back home...!" My mom asked how I knew and I told her, "I just know!" Of course, Later on that night, when my sister and I left the house to check on him, I learned just that and more. Everything I said he did, the night before, was true, and how he acted with the police was true also! In the end, my cousin is a lucky man to be alive, and just around the corner, we'll see how lucky and blessed he trully is!
...Nite all!
As you all know, or may know, I've had a couple of family issues that kept me from blogging and getting the word out about how things are going! Now to tell the truth, I got sloppy, lazy and thought of this as a chore, and not really put forth more effort than I really should have to keep going at it... SORRY folks! But, since this is a new year, and I'm trying to do better at Doing, and NOT just saying that I'm gonna DO! I feel that I can take my time and not rush into anything too fast now... SOOOOOOOO, Here goes!!!!
In November, If I didn't tell this story, I'll tell it again to re-aquaint us with all the great details. My cousin fell ill and had to be institutionalized for a short time, Very Brief time rather! He began a downward spiral into this bottom-less pit of pain and misery that many of us don't come back from! To further explain this tale, my cousin experimented with a couple of drugs that messed up his mind. As a result of the drugs, he lost it! His mind was so far gone that he was on a level of his own with shear craziness! Now, here's where I come in... That morning I awoke with Lady Ga Ga in my head singing Paparazzi! At the time, I didn't quite know what the Hell was happening and what was really going on, but I knew it had something to do with my cousin and his friend. It wasn't until I got to the hospital where my cousin was being held that I realized that he, and his friend was up all night acting and singing Lady Ga Ga songs, and flipping the FUCK out, literally! Now, the cousin's friend is just fine, and my cousin is held in the institution losing his DAMN mind! All of this was from drugs he took, and the chasers he mixed with the drugs. As we sat at the hospital waiting for word from the nurses, or anyone that could give us some absolution that he'd be okay, my mind began to wander and backtrack the events that possibly led him to the hospital. I began to see the dancing, singing, and playing around the night before, and I also saw that he kept bothering his sleeping boyfriend! My good ole' cousin wanted his boyfriend to get up and play with them, dancing, singing, and such... Then, my mind flashed to the events of that morning, before the police arrived, and hauled him to the back of the patrol car for showing out - in front of the PO-PO, then to an ambulance for treatment at the local mental facility. Now, at the hospital again, we wait as the psychiatrist tell us "NOT" to be an enabler for my cousin and start telling him, NO! We should mean what we say, and not give in to his tandrums if we trully want him to get better! At that time, I thought and kinda read her gestures as she stood there telling us about this 22-something year old-ass, grown MUTHAFUCKA, that's clearly making his own decisions as to how he wants to live his life! The anger was there, but I didn't let her have it! Instead, I cried, because she told us that we couldn't see him for 24 hours, and there was nothing that I could possibly do to fix this besides pray, and wait on the LORD to deliver us from this craziness that's taken over our lives, at this point and time! Hurt and sad, YES!!! As the next morning approaches, my dreams have alerted me that my cousin has been released from the hospital, and is on his way home in his little black car! My mom called and woke me up as I told her exactly, "Ma, dat boy done been released and is in his car heading back home...!" My mom asked how I knew and I told her, "I just know!" Of course, Later on that night, when my sister and I left the house to check on him, I learned just that and more. Everything I said he did, the night before, was true, and how he acted with the police was true also! In the end, my cousin is a lucky man to be alive, and just around the corner, we'll see how lucky and blessed he trully is!
...Nite all!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Happy New Year ...
Happy New Year Everyone ....
This year, I plan on seeing more and focusing more on how I can help people and not just seeing and feeling the otherside so much! I thank and enjoy each and every one of you for reading this, and wish you all a safe and very prosperous new year this year!
This year, I plan on seeing more and focusing more on how I can help people and not just seeing and feeling the otherside so much! I thank and enjoy each and every one of you for reading this, and wish you all a safe and very prosperous new year this year!
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