The Truth About Love

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If God is Love, then that means, the love we share with each other is more than just what we thought it could ever be! It means that God is in the relationship and is the bond between you and your loved ones. He is the reason why we all have someone special to love, whether is a family member, a friend, a boyfriend, a girlfriend, or siblings. The Lord has them in your life for a reason and that reason is to experience "True Love!" Not just puppy love or even lust, but a chance to give someone your heart, and they give theirs in return. In that bond between the two of you, that is where God lies! Nothing in this world or the next is as strong as the power of love - the bond between us and GOD. That's why, when we have a loved one that's hurt or something's wrong with them, you hurt as well as they do! It's a shared experience, and is true love. A love that transends time, space, and the other side. Even if the loved one has passed on to the spirit-world, the love you shared with them never dies, it simply grows and gets shared with another entity -- namely someone else. Sometimes, we never really get over the loss of love for someone (break-ups and such), so we turn that love into a love for someone or something else that comes along, or that something/someone is already there in your life! If you have a person you truly love, you are more than willing to do anything for them, even if it means loosing your own well-being or your life. True love is unselfish, never-ending, supporting, unyielding, ever-faithful, and undying! Even if we may feel we don't deserve it, this kind of love is meant for us all!

Out of the Past

The past haunts me! I've always believed that the past leads to a better future for myself and for my family. Sometimes, I see the figures and I think to myself, "Damn, I wonder what really happens when we die?" Are these figures of people that have past over and are now visiting me, or are these visitors of my past haunting me, trying to warn me of what's to come? Whatever the feelings I'm having, am I gonna be alright? Will my family recover from the loss of my father or will we have another tragedy strike us down and devastate us further? Sometimes, I get so wrapped up with seeing things that I can't see what's right in front of my face -- the real, everyday instances and situations that occur to us all everyday, every hour, every second, and every minute! If this is an oman of some dastardly devastating ass event, I'm not ready for it and in fact, I MAY NOT FULLY RECOVER FROM IT!!! I'm still not over the passing of my father and the passing of my grandmother years earlier. I still hurt and can't really bring myself to wake up and be where I'm supposed to be at times. Hell, I cry myself to sleep at night when I start to feel them around me. Why? Why does this happen to me? Who makes all these rules? Who says they had to die? Will we finally be alright? When can I stop feeling and hurting when I look at my door or out of my window? If time can only tell, HOW MUCH TIME? These and many other questions I have and must ask HIM (GOD)... Why the hurt and the pain, and when will it end? Our lives is not the same here without our loved ones and I can't imagine my life without them any further! Save us Lord... Please, save us from our damaged and broken past, and help us look for a brighter, better future.

AMEN

The Bond Between Family

Hello All,

From time to time, the bond between family members can be STRONG AS HELL! Depending on how close you are to your family... I have this bond with my mom, dad, and my sister. For years, I've always been able to feel them, or see things that they see and actually be sick when they are! Unfortunatley for me, the sick part is the part I HATE!!! When my mom or sister gets sick, all I have to do is walk in the house and I just feel like I'm nauseated. Yesterday, my sister was sick as hell and puking everywhere. I woke up and felt like I wanted to start puking too, ewwwwwww! I didn't have to hear her throwing up to know she was sick! I felt it in my stomach. I know this sounds totally silly, but I haven't seen my sister in months and now that she's around more, I felt positively sick when her stomach was hurting. As long as I can remember, we've had this bond between us... Even my dad came home one day and got sick from us! Now that I've grown up a bit, the bond is still there and going strong! I'm happy that I'm still close, but repulsed by the sickness that it caused me...

Nite folks!

Spirits Around Us

Hello All,

Do you ever wonder if your being watched or have that feeling of Not being alone in a room? Well guys and gals, you're NOT alone! Sometimes, its just your passed on family and friends checking up on you, or its just a local ghost or spirit. When I have that feeling, I know its someone that I love standing near and watching over me. They're around to guide us and keep us safe from danger. Most of us will have this feeling occur when our defenses are down. Meaning, when we are alone, just before you go to sleep, just before you aawaken, when your meditating, or when your in a relaxed state of mind -- basically. Don't be scared, they just want to help us along and check on us from time to time! Its their way of helping us out from the other side and letting us know that they are still around to love and guide us. If you ever need one of them, call out to them and you should feel their presence almost immediately! Let your mind go and lower your defenses, and they'll be somewhere close by...

but for now, Love and be Loved!

The Truth about HELL !

Hell is a very real place and none of us can afford to go to there! I say this because I'm Scared of the Damn Dark and I DO NOT like getting burned! Literally, when I tell you, Hell is very real, BELIEVE IT! If you guys can't believe SHIT else I tell you, believe in that! I saw Hell... Years ago, one young and stupid little boy I was to believe that nothing phased me with all this spiritual crap and mumbo jumbo. I thought I was invinsible and that I'd always live forever. For me though, forever is a dream and reality is everyday. One night just as I began to awaken, I had a vision of HELL... I saw fire and darkness all around me as far as the eye can see. Everything was black -- So black, that I couldn't even see my own hand, and anything else around me, but the fire. The only light I saw was the fiery pits all around me, DEEP pits of fire with people trapped inside them. Everyone is screaming and crying out in pain, looking for a way out! In the darkness, their trapped, screaming, whaling in sorrow, and in agony, being devoured by the fire. Yes, Hell is a Very Real Place, and I cannot afford to be there! Can you?

A Divine Revelation of Hell

The Little Girl Is Back

Hey All,

Earlier, I mentioned that I saw a little girl when I was about 10 years old in my room. Well, she kinda never left this house! I feel her around me sometimes watching and playing somewhere close by! To describe her, she's a young, brown-skinned, black girl, about 5'6, shoulder-length hair with little plats all over it. When she appears to me, sometimes I see her as just a shadow with really white, perfect teeth! In fact, this last time I saw her, she was in the doorway to my room, when I awoke to see her smiling at me. I wish she would tell me her name, but I guess she's not really ready to play with me anymore now that I'm older. Anyway, I'll check back with you all after I return to Texas.

P.S. I hope I get a chance to see my little friend before I leave!

My Father's Accident

Hello All,

Months before my dad got sick and hospitalized, I had a very disturbing dream that he was in a car accident and died. In the dream, I saw my father in his truck, as usual, coming down the highway in a rain storm trying to make it back home. He was driving along and lost control of his truck in the storm. The truck spun out of control and turned upside down on him ... He was trapped inside the truck and buried in a large pool of water along the highway. All of my dreams and nightmares couldn't compare to watching my father buried in the pool of water with no one around to help him! Never in my wildest of dreams had I ever saw something so real and so intense until this dream! My dad was buried and I couldn't do A DAMN THING, but call out to him in shock! It was like someone was showing me this to help save him from this fate... As if, I was right there with him watching as the turn of events took place! The horror and the pain went on as I awakened screaming out, "LORD Save MY DADDY! Don't Take Him this Way.... Please Lord, Please Don't Take him!" After that cry out, I sat in my bed holding myself and crying harder than I ever cried before. It was SO real and so intense that I could reach out and touch the very waters that seemed to drown my dad. I was in total disbelief and in a state of shock when I found out from him months later that this had actually happened! He told me that the truck turned on its side and he jumped out just before it stared to turn over. I asked him how he got the truck back on its side and he told me that his friend dove into a huge pool of water where the truck was to find him! When he stood there, I can see that he had this look of AWE as he went on and on about how his friend, Bo, dove in to help him as he stood there by the water untouched! HELL, he was watching his friend jump in and look for him! That night, we looked at the truck and THANKED GOD that he was still here for us. My dad told me that he was forever greatful to his friend Bo for diving in after him! NO, I'm forever greatful the LORD who really heard my plea and didn't take him! Not until much later, but that's another story...

We Love Ya' Jerry!

Back home -- Realization!

I left the big job in the city and came back home for a few days to collect my thoughts and get a few things from the house here in Mississippi. As soon as I get here, I feel like I'm home! All of my worries about what I've been seeing and feeling is getting to a point where its becoming second nature and not just something that's handy from time to time. I am starting to rely on my thoughts and feelings more... Especially when dealing with people and emotions. Some people are only about what they can get from you and how they can exploit what type of talent you have to their benefit! The second type of person wants to secretly have what you have and take your shit (excuse me) along the way! They use you up and then when there's nothing left, they discard you and move on to the next sucker on their list! They have no loyalty to anyone and is willing to do what it takes to replace you with themselves. In this world and in this time in our lives, I challenge everyone to feel people they meet for themselves and NOT just take them for face value. If a person is displaying a behavior that is NOT healthy to themselves or to others, report them to the police! Don't waste time trying to talk and calm them down if they are dead set on killing or harming someone or themselves. Please folks, I urge you to be a real friend to yourself and to others on this matter!


Kenyon

Reoccurring Dream

Good Morning all,

This morning, I'm writing you guys because I can't get to sleep yet! So, I decided to write a little bit to help me dose off! Today, I had a thought about a reoccurring dream that I used to have as a kid and a teenager. In the dream, I was in the dark and trapped on a ledge of somewhere. But Where? In the middle of Nowhere... Freaky - YEP! For years, I dreamed that dream, I don't know why it would be that dream, but I was always trapped there, looking for someone to come and help me! In the dream, I remember just standing there on the ledge waiting and just frustrated because it was soooo dark! Everywhere I looked seemed like the darkness was just there and neverending. The ledge seemed like it was VERY small and the side of the building of the DARK was poking me in my back. Almost as if the darkness was trying to push me off the ledge and into MORE DARKNESS... If anyone knows what this could mean, please tell me! I need a lil' help with this one.

My Grandmother's Angels

Good Morning all,

This story comes from my grandmother when she was a little girl, and her mother was about to pass over to the other side. My grandmother was a very wise and intuitive person far beyond her 97 years of living. When we were little and growing up, my grandmother would tell us all the time about the angels that came to take away her mother. She explained to us (my sister and myself) that the angels were 2 little lights, no bigger than a light from a flashlight. She said that the angels were there to take her mom away because she had been sick for a while and wasn't getting any better. When the two little lights appeared, her brother noticed them and called out to my grandma to look at the lights. She told us the lights came into her mom's bedroom, got her mom, and then left out through the front door. When they went into the room where her mom was, they apparently didn't believe she really left with the angels, but to their surprise, it was true! The angels came and took her away... After days pass at the funeral, my grandma told us that she was hurt and crying over her mom, when a voice came to her and said, "Look up, crying ain't gone bring her back!" All our lives, we've heard my grandma would talk about this, and even now that she's gone, I still look back and over my shoulders to see if she's there. I know this may sound silly, but when I'm down and out and really feeling bad, I think about how she loves us and will do anything for us. She makes us feel safe and wanted when the world felt cold and lonesome. And when her time came to leave us, I know two very special angels came and took her home!