A Thought for Today...

Everyday, I wake up to look in the mirror to see if I'm the person who is staring back at me. And everyday, that person looking at me says, "This is your life, and you must break out of this shell and live your life to the fullest before it's too late!"

Thank you self for the best advice ever!

The Followup from the Lottery

Hey Everyone,

Guess what, folks??? I won $5.00 when I did my scratch-off outside my sister's school yesterday... I guess the dream was really true... Maybe I was meant to see me winning something, after-all! Yeah, I know that $5.00 is really nothing, but to me, it's a start to something maybe bigger! Who's to say that that $5.00 could lead to another scratch-off worth more than a million dollars! Only time can tell! Of Course, I have the highest of hopes and the dreams of winners, so... Yeah, right!

Good morning all... Have a great day!

Thinking I'm a Winner Every Time!

Hello all,

The other day, I awakened to a crazy dream that had me thinking that I'd win the lottery via a scratch-off! In the dream, I was in my car scratching off a lottery ticket and thought to myself that, "Damn, what if I really win this thing...? What would I do?" Then, then next thing I know, I'm waking up looking like a fool, because later in the day, when I actually get the scratch-off, I didn't win a damn thing! Ha-Ha... Sometimes, I really do wish that when I dream its to actually help me win the lotto and not just a stupid scratch-off and get totally nothing...!

Later folks!

Tomorrow Never Comes ...

Hello all,

As the title states, "Tomorrow Never Comes," for some of us tomorrow may never make it to us, and tomorrow is never even promised to no one! With that said, we have to make use of the time we have here on earth while we can! If I die today, I wanna be known for being a good person, funny, thoughtful, and very lovable with all, even my enemies! What are some of the things that you guys will be noted for and why? I, or we may never know where this day may take us, so we must do what we can when we can... No more procrastinations, or second thoughts. The time is now!!!! Start living and loving! If tomorrow never comes, then we should at least leave a legacy of love ... May we all find it, and peace to you all!

Good morning and good night, folks!

Dreaming of Something's Wrong at Home

Hey yall,

I'm writing again today because I been meaning to get back into the grove of things again, and to let you guys know what happened to my mom just before Christmas this past year. Now, As you all may know, I don't live in Mississippi anymore, but I still consider it home, so this dream was of home and something that went wrong there! Okay, in the dream, I saw my mom at the front door of the house, opening the door for an unknown-ass man, or so I thought at the time. The man was a black male, brown skinned, and well-dressed with a leather cap, dress slacks, a brownish sweater, black loafers, and a black leather jacket standing at the front door talking to my mom! As I stare at this man at the door, he appeared to be anxious about something and wanting to get nasty with my mom over something. At the time, I didn't quite understand what he was saying, but his facial features gave me reason to pause and wonder what the hell is wrong! My mom slammed the door and told me to call the police...! That's where I awakened, and did that very same thing! I urgently told my friend at the police department in my home town and told her that something is wrong, and that she should send a patrolman over to breeze through the area, specifically my mom's place, to check on her and the house. My friend told me that she'd send someone over, and I got off the phone. Usually, when I dream things like this, it takes maybe a day or so for it to come to pass, but when my mom came for a visit for Christmas, I discovered on that day or the next day or so, she very well indeed had someone at her door with some drama! It turns out that, it was a cousin of ours at her door, demanding that he get the keys to the SUV parked out front of the house. Now the SUV belonged to my uncle, so my mom explained to our cousin that she was leaving for a meeting and to never show up there again in so many words or more, if you catch my drift! I'm so relieved that dear old cousin didn't try anything funny, because my mom will have shot the SHIT out of him and called it a day! Thank you LORD, she can hold her own and that things weren't worse!

Good night all...

Seeing My Dad Again

Hey All,

The other night as I lay and slumber, I dreamed of my dad working somewhere on the other side. In the dream, Jerry was working outside on someone's drainage system outside this house somewhere! As I walked up to him while he worked, he greeted me, and I told him that I would help him fix the drain, and mold the stone portion of the drainage thing. Yal know that I don't know shit about drains and how to fix them, but while I was there, I can honestly say that I actually "Knew," without knowing fully what to do, when it came to fixing the drain. I said to my dad that I'm glad to be here helping him. We were side-by-side working, and as usual before anything really good happens, I wake up in a confused daze about seeing him again, and why now after this long time without seeing him? I'm hoping that he just wanted to talk to me, and to reassure me that he's there for me, even in death like he was when he was alive! I love him and thank GOD for his love everyday that I breathe! My dad is a great and proud man that didn't want his wife and kids to do without anything! He was the type of man to work hard at something, even in death I see, to achieve the ultimate goal of finishing what he started! He gave us his love and his all, and by GOD, I still miss and want him here, but as long as I can feel him around me, and see him from time to time in my dreams, that will have to do for now, until we meet again on the other side.

Love you guys and gals, Good night!

Letting the Lord Guide You!

Hello Folks,

Today, I wanna give you all some insight as to what I mean when I say, "Letting the Lord Guide you." When you feel that you have a great idea about something and that you want to put that idea into motion, that's the Lord working through you, guiding your every step to the right path. Also, when you're undecided about an event, or something that's going on in your life, your first thought is the thought that you should follow because it's the will of God trying to guide you to where you need to be! Usually, when we get these little insights and these little feelings, don't turn away from them or doubt them, because they are the feelings that could lead to something totally great and wonderful in your life. For example, a while back, I blogged about being led by an unseen force... That was God telling me where to go! I was in my car and driving to get my truck serviced, and I had a thought to turn here and silly me (with doubt), I went right past the place where I was supposed to go and the turn I needed to make! Eventually, I made a U-turn and came back to the spot where I needed to turn, and there was the auto shop, right in front of me! Soooo folks, I urge you to listen to your first mind because it'll never lead you wrong!

Good night and God Bless...

An Uneasy Rest

The night before last night, I had someone whisper to me all night long, and I couldn't get NOT one damn wink of sleep almost! There I was in the bed laying there and I kept hearing my EX-friend's voice saying her name over and over! Now, because she's an EX-friend, I woulda checked on her and tried to make sure that things were okay with her, but I can't because of all the drama and bullshit I been through in the past because of her! She, at one point in my life, made me feel like I was a terrific friend, great confidant, and a great person to be around! Now that I've stopped dealing with the drama that's been happening with her, I feel free of craziness and mess! I feel as though I'm still a terrific person inside and out, but also a person that has been through enough, and will NOT go back through the kind of mess and bullshit I've been through with her ass! Don't get me wrong, at that time, I loved and coulda worshipped the ground she walked on, but I just can't do it anymore! It got to a point that I couldn't trust my own judgement because of something she woulda said to me... She would lie constantly about shit that was too small, and try her best to make me believe her! Thank God I didn't fall for it, but I was constantly tested like that with her, and on top of things, she was only a friend -- or so I thought! I had no idea as to how many people she lost as friends because she uses them, and treats them like shit, too! In a way, I wanna call and check on what's going on with her, but in the same breath, I also just wanna NOT care this rip! So, Peace and blessings to you all and my best advice, if you have someone that's been treating you the same way, then your life will be much better without them (the person, or people that's making your life a living hell) in it!

Feeling and Seeing Trouble Before, and After it Starts!

Hey Yal,

As you all know, or may know, I've had a couple of family issues that kept me from blogging and getting the word out about how things are going! Now to tell the truth, I got sloppy, lazy and thought of this as a chore, and not really put forth more effort than I really should have to keep going at it... SORRY folks! But, since this is a new year, and I'm trying to do better at Doing, and NOT just saying that I'm gonna DO! I feel that I can take my time and not rush into anything too fast now... SOOOOOOOO, Here goes!!!!

In November, If I didn't tell this story, I'll tell it again to re-aquaint us with all the great details. My cousin fell ill and had to be institutionalized for a short time, Very Brief time rather! He began a downward spiral into this bottom-less pit of pain and misery that many of us don't come back from! To further explain this tale, my cousin experimented with a couple of drugs that messed up his mind. As a result of the drugs, he lost it! His mind was so far gone that he was on a level of his own with shear craziness! Now, here's where I come in... That morning I awoke with Lady Ga Ga in my head singing Paparazzi! At the time, I didn't quite know what the Hell was happening and what was really going on, but I knew it had something to do with my cousin and his friend. It wasn't until I got to the hospital where my cousin was being held that I realized that he, and his friend was up all night acting and singing Lady Ga Ga songs, and flipping the FUCK out, literally! Now, the cousin's friend is just fine, and my cousin is held in the institution losing his DAMN mind! All of this was from drugs he took, and the chasers he mixed with the drugs. As we sat at the hospital waiting for word from the nurses, or anyone that could give us some absolution that he'd be okay, my mind began to wander and backtrack the events that possibly led him to the hospital. I began to see the dancing, singing, and playing around the night before, and I also saw that he kept bothering his sleeping boyfriend! My good ole' cousin wanted his boyfriend to get up and play with them, dancing, singing, and such... Then, my mind flashed to the events of that morning, before the police arrived, and hauled him to the back of the patrol car for showing out - in front of the PO-PO, then to an ambulance for treatment at the local mental facility. Now, at the hospital again, we wait as the psychiatrist tell us "NOT" to be an enabler for my cousin and start telling him, NO! We should mean what we say, and not give in to his tandrums if we trully want him to get better! At that time, I thought and kinda read her gestures as she stood there telling us about this 22-something year old-ass, grown MUTHAFUCKA, that's clearly making his own decisions as to how he wants to live his life! The anger was there, but I didn't let her have it! Instead, I cried, because she told us that we couldn't see him for 24 hours, and there was nothing that I could possibly do to fix this besides pray, and wait on the LORD to deliver us from this craziness that's taken over our lives, at this point and time! Hurt and sad, YES!!! As the next morning approaches, my dreams have alerted me that my cousin has been released from the hospital, and is on his way home in his little black car! My mom called and woke me up as I told her exactly, "Ma, dat boy done been released and is in his car heading back home...!" My mom asked how I knew and I told her, "I just know!" Of course, Later on that night, when my sister and I left the house to check on him, I learned just that and more. Everything I said he did, the night before, was true, and how he acted with the police was true also! In the end, my cousin is a lucky man to be alive, and just around the corner, we'll see how lucky and blessed he trully is!

...Nite all!

Happy New Year ...

Happy New Year Everyone ....

This year, I plan on seeing more and focusing more on how I can help people and not just seeing and feeling the otherside so much! I thank and enjoy each and every one of you for reading this, and wish you all a safe and very prosperous new year this year!